Hey there, friends. It's been a tough few days around here. On Sunday night, our beloved Boxer, Finn, died suddenly at the very young age of four. Last May, he collapsed while on a walk and was diagnosed with a ventricular arrhythmia. He was immediately put on a beta blocker to treat it in the hope that it would not progress to cardiomyopathy, and by all accounts, the meds were working. He had another episode five days after the first, while the meds were still getting into his system, and then had not had another episode since.
Two additional visits to the vet with normal ECG's over the last seven months lulled us into a false sense of relief that we had caught this in its earliest stages before the catastrophic happened. How wrong we were. I had fully accepted that his life might not be the 10ish years we expect to get from our dogs, but never in a million years did I think we would lose him at four, and so very suddenly. We had no warning at all. One second we were watching a movie and he was sitting right by us in front of the couch, and the next second, he collapsed from sudden heart failure. He was gone in seconds, despite my futile attempt at CPR. It was very traumatic, and I feel like he has been stolen from me.
These last few days have been a constant battle to keep tears at bay, and if I'm being honest, I've been mostly unsuccessful. Since I'm home all day, Finn was my constant companion. He took a nap between my legs on an ottoman in our living room every morning while I drank my coffee. When I was in my studio, he would drag his special blanket in there just to lay beside me, and when I was cooking in the kitchen, he was never more than a few feet away. We joked that I couldn’t even shower or use the restroom without supervision. Every single part of my day included him. He was so attached to me. There is an enormous void in my house right now, and I miss him so much that my chest hurts. We are heartbroken and in a state of shock.
So, NTT is taking a break this week, and instead, here are some pictures of my sweet boy. Thanks for understanding.